Decorating Gone Awry

Today we decided to decorate the house for the Holidays. Now if you know us, you know that my sister and I each collect holiday figurines, of sorts. I have Angels galore and she has enough Santa's to make even Gimble's jealous.

Each year we pick a new theme for our tree. Red and Green, Blue and Silver, All Pastels. This year's went a little out the window. We decided that we wanted all color, all the time. We dug out our flashiest ornaments and ribbons and literally threw beaded garland at the tree. We kept giggling guiltily, like we were doing something very naughty. It brought back all those crazy memories of throwing tinsel at a tree covered in bright colored lights, just like when we were 5. Now we just need a few orange glass balls and maybe some pink marabou and we'll be all set.

So the tree is mostly done, and we get to spend the rest of the week sorting out all the figurines that have been unboxed and need spread throughout the house. Let's hope we can scrounge up enough flat surfaces this year. ;-)

Better today...

I am mostly done being angry, but am still a little hurt. Or maybe sad is a better word. Sad that it's over before it began. Sad that those few short days of silly happy are gone again.

For my part, I suppose I can't blame him too much. You can't control how your heart moves, no matter how you may want to. Plus, I refuse to be anyone's second choice. "Anything less than mad, passionate, extraordinary love is a waste of my time." So I wish him well, and hope he finds that which will make him whole.

So back to my quiet life, and the search for something great. Perhaps it's time to go back to corsets and fluffy skirts and the land where chivalry still rules. It's always good to go back to the one place where you get to feel beautiful, no matter what. ;-)

Today, not so happy...

Angry....That's all I can think about right now is that I am angry. Well, hurt and angry, but mostly angry.

When it comes to relationships, I play with all my cards on the table. This can be dangerous, as it's easy to get hurt, but the results are usually worth it. You get more honest relationships, both platonic and romantic.

I recently started getting to know someone and as always, was completely open. As it turns out, he was playing with an ace in the hole...this being that he is still in love with someone else. Whether he realized or not, I don't know, but either way, it's a little awful. I held nothing back and assumed I was getting the same from him. Perhaps the worst part is that I figured it out while reading his blog this morning. I guess you really can find anything in cyberspace...